tormented --a

*i don't know this is good or bad note*

i don't know why can we meet each other
i don't know why we can close
i don't know why i love you
yes. i know that just my past
but now, i don't know why i can't forget you
i don't know why i can't remove you from my life
is this my 1st love?
or my true love?
but, i guess you aren't my true love
'cause you never exist in my eyes
but you're really exist in my heart
i really want to talk with you
i really want to hold your hand
i really want to hug you
i really want to rely on your shoulder
i really want you to be my best friend
i really want you to erase my tear when i cry
i really want you to protect me
but, i think it's just in my imagination
it's impossible and NEVER happens
we haven't meet each other
we're seperated by long distance
you've ever break me up
you lied to me
even you broke your promises
it's really painful and really hurt my heart
even though you kill my heart, i've never hate you
all i know that i just love you
i can't find another boy to change your position
i'll also try to hate and forget you
but i can't even i try as hard as i can
after read this note maybe you said this note is silly
maybe you said i'm just a kid
maybe you said i'm not like the other girl
maybe you never like me and said i'm annoying or weirdo
but that's not a big problem for me
i know that you've forget all of our memories
how can you forget?
i want you to teach me how to forget that
i want you to teach me how to love someone else
like you forget me and throw me away like a trash --"
i want you teach me like you've done to me
by the way, i'm sorry if this note make you ilfeel because i always talk about you in my blog
i know i'm not perfect at all
i just want to show you what i feel
'cause i always hide my feelings with my smile and my laugh
and one thing that i want to say to you is:
"iloveyou" :')

all about my school life. lol

baru smpet ngupdate blog wkwk
jadi anak kelas 9 tu ribeeet banget --"
to lah, pulang sore gara" ada pm
blom lg ulangan ckckck
ga kerasa tadinya gw baru masuk smp
dlu kelas 7 sekarang kls 9 ckck
3 thn ga kerasa bgt

kan uda dbagiin hasil to. lol
malu" gw dpt 7 7 7 ama 5 =="
ya kira" gitu lah ckck
pas gw ktemu sepupu gw yg kelas 9 juga
gw nanya: "eh lw uda to blom? dpt brapa?"
sppu gw: "udah kok. dpt bagus pokoknya deh"
dlm hati gw mikir malu"in gw aja dpt nilai pas"an ~__~
trus gw tanya dy lagi dpt berapa aja
trus sppu gw malah bilang kalo dy dpt 5 5 4 4
WKAKAKAKKAKAKAK NGAKAK
gw kira nilainya diatas gw smua =="

nah terus. pas ul plkj kan gw duduk di sebelah apong
mnggu depannya pas dbagiin gw dpt bagus
trus si apong nanya gw "mon dpt berapa?"
gw: "nih" *gw kasi liat ul gw ke dy
trus si apong ngomong:
"ah gila mon lw dpt cepe. padahal gw nyontek lw masa gw dpt 50 =="
wkwkwkkw gw ga nyadar sama skali wktu itu si apong emang nyontek gw --a
padahal gw ngarang bebas ga blajar lol
tapi emg plkj itu gampang sih. yg brhubungan ttg jkt gitu o.O
soalnya yg berkaitan dgn jkt itu = macet, banjir, sampah dimana" wkwkwkwkwk
trus wktu pulangnya si justin kn yg doa awkakakak
eh dy doanya gini: "semoga yg pulang sampai di rumah dengan selamat, & yg pm agar ... *diem* cepat pulang"
AWKWAKWAKKAWKWAK goblok bgt dy --a
trus 1 kls gw yg lg sunyi pada ketawa tpi ditahan gara" lg doa --"
pas slese doa gw smpe ketawa ngakak ngikik

oh ia 1 lagi yg kocak!
tadi kan gw dibagiin ul ekonomi
keren banget kelas gw rata" dpt nilai kyk nomor absen WKWKWK
1 kelas merah smua kecuali 2 orang LOL
si riris ama tamara yg ga merah.
soalnya wktu ul eko itu bentrok ama ul sjarah =="
dan knyataannya sjarah itu lebih gampang drpd eko
soalnya guru eko gw nyebelin bgt ini jwbn harus textbook --a
uda pelit nilai lg ckck
makanya pd dpt jelek wkakakakak
tmen" gw bnyk yg dpt nilai yg kepala ny 2,3, sama 4
gw ga nyangka tiffany yg rank 1 dpt 48 ==a
biasanya dy dpt 90 100 terus
smpe" gw ngomong ke apong smbil ngakak" kyk gini
"pong. gw bangga gw dpt 51!! *lebay*. wkakakkakak. soalnya 51 ud termasuk tinggi LOL".
gw jadi inget dulu pas kelas 8
ul eko gw pernah dpt 21. lol
pas remednya, 1 kelas yg dpake buat remed uda kyk korban pengungsian gunung merapi ckckck --"
ga blajar gw waktu itu. gara" yg remed banyak bgt sampe" gw bisa nyontek pas remed wkwkwkwk

*update*
hmm pas 4 feb. pas masuk abis sincia
kelas gw yg tadinya rame jadi sepi bgt
yg ga masuk aja ada 9 org --"
kalo ga ad ul gw pengennya bolos ckck
gara" si tamara ama rere ga masuk gw ama apong pindah ke situ
jadi gw duduk dbelakang keyne wkwk
pas b.ing kan cuma listening lagu doang
kan lagu pertama yg gw dger itu we will rock you
gw inget dlu pas masih sd kelas brp gitu kelas gw pernah nnyi tu lagu sambil gebrak" meja wkakakka
terus kata rocknya diganti fuck lah --"
lagu kedua: the clash - i fought the law
tu lagu kocak bgt smpe jadi lagu kbangsaan gw ama apong glenn keyne --"
kata" "i fought the law and the law won" keputer trus d otak gw ud kyk trojan wkakakakakak
yg begonya pas ul pkn, 1 jm dsuru blajar, kelas gw sepi kyk kuburan
kdengeran kelas sbelah lg listening yg tadi
gara" gw dger i fought the law and the law won gw jd ga konsen bwt bljr ==
sampe" gw ngakak" am keyne am apong ckck
saking ga bisa konsen gw pas lagi ul kata" yg gw inget cuma "i fought the law and the law won"
hampir" gw tulis si kertas ul = "ethnoscapes= i fought the law and the law won"
WKAKKAKAKKAKA
si keyne ud tulis itu tapi dicoret ==
wkakakakak ancur lah tapi bgusnya gw masih bisa ngerjain --"


lol